A one sided love – story

BY- Ameena kausar

Here It was all about Love. As Love word utters there’s all butterflies flying in her stomach. And that pain, not from grief but the pain due to all happiness showering from very beginning and there she was with no option to escape from the great word LOVE.

She was feeling many unknown feelings that she never had come across, due to that person whom she thinks he was the one that she belonged.

She found her happiness when she looked into his eyes, Deeper and Deeper and then to his soul where she finds her peace in him. She found happiness with her skipped heartbeat, when he just glanced her. And also she found the happiness when he address her even though she knows he hates her. she found it cute when he bullied too.

she found him to be her prince charming. where he finds her to be a normal person just with an idiotic humor and where he has a crush on someone, someone whom he thinks he’ll be comfortable being with. And where he has many dreams to be fulfilled with. he was experiencing the same feeling as her but to someone who he adores about.

And there she was making plans to make him fall in love with her. Standing hours and hours in front of her mirror, dressing up and learning to look beautiful with non-makeup look. And changing her styles to match his style just to make him notice her. but she was unaware of the feelings that’s stucked in him and growing every second. The feelings which won’t let him even look at her in the way she wants him to see

She thought he’s watching her like she does it to him. She thought she’s getting the vibe from his side tooo. Many signs which may be just a co- incidence making her fly higher and higher. Thinking there’s the sign also from THE GREAT non mortal to make them dash to eachother.

Cause,she never had such an experience. As She was a fresh wine sealed inside the bottle, since many years waiting to be poured. And though she could control her sense but Now all she want is him. She wants all her dream to come true with him. Now she was like a hunger queen,Can do anything to earn him.

As feelings increased, somewhere from the depth of her heart gets the courage to open up her feelings to him. Tells the truth,and for the surprise, “I’M NOT INTO YOU ” were the only words that came out of his wide thin-lipped, and he walks off. She tries to stop him but her lips locked and only watch him vanish, Numbly Standing there still.

All her dreams were crushed by then. She’s getting to feel the heavy pain. The pain where she felt like a sharp knife with his name attacking her deeper and deeper. Wounded deep inside ,she finds it helpless.

She thinks she’s betrayed. Not just by him but the one who let her into this world (Lord). She thought she’s lost. she found herself helpless. She thought her lord let her down with those signs. Thought that if she wouldn’t had got those vibes, she wouldn’t be in this situation. And Day’s passed just like a blink of an eye. Every single night she used to cry.

CRY For him. Cry for the things she had dreamt about . Cry for no reasons sometimes. Or even just sit and think about how foolish she was, even to go and tell every single feeling that she felt about him. She thought she would never come up from the numbness, pain, heaviness, emptiness and felt how lonely she was.

She stopped everything that made him notice. She stopped her heart to feel anything. She used to keep quite all day. And somewhere something ,may be a peace started to flow all over her leisurely that ignited the depth of her soul . Slowly her pain was getting eased. And she didnt even noticed. And One day, she felt nothing. NO pain, NO heaviness Nor any guilt. She wondered how this can get healed? Thinking about this,she steps out from her lonely world and there she comes to her senses and finds her answers.

Answers for all those questions she had. Answers for all her worries. This could be done by the only thing which was her MERCIFUL LORD. She was blaming him before but He actually was saving her from the burden she would never bear. She smiled when those words let out from her own mind.

Yes, She smiled after a very long time. Thinking how stupid she was to blame her LORD. Yes, She accepted the rejection happily now . She thought her LORD has a better plans ahead for her.

Also this story does’nt end just with the end of a LOVE before it could even start. But it ends with a moral to accept the rejection, have a complete trust on your lord,self love (appreciate the real you) And also it’s just the beginning to her. She believes and has much more trust on her LORD now. And she still has a hope to find her love,A soulmate where there’s mutual feelings to eachother and where she wears her real self than making him fall for her.,:))

Thank you for reading… it’s still isn’t that better but I hope I can improve…. do comment what I can correct and I would surely go through it and also if you like it then do share………… It would help me better my skills!!:))))